tiring tuesday

18th of February

south conservatory

6:51 pm

Headache begins to kick in. I can feel the weight of my body bogging me down. People chatting beside our table is not helping at all. Amidst all these I cant stop thinking about you. I can keep my mind off the thought that you are still somewhere in the middle of nowhere where the world is free to think stuff about you, criticize you and stare at you. Damn, once again I feel the pain from the headache that is tormenting me.

As I look outside I began to think of that things that might happen to you. I then looked at my phone, still no message from you. As I saw the clock displaying "17:05", I began to feel some relief, knowing that its still early. "Maaga pa. Wag ka magalala. Tsk." I begin to utter these words in my head. "Kasama naman nya si pare, safe un." Gah. I then paused for a while to think of what i should or could be doing right now. Hmm.

1. Eat
2. Eat ice cream
3. Study playing the guitar
4. Go to Mineski and play
5. Eat?
6. Write a blog entry
7. Update my multiply
8. Text you
9. Call you

Shit, the thought of you in danger once again crossed my tired and headache tormented head. I tried reaching for my phone and try to dial your number but I suddenly remembered, "Lay low pare." Arghh. I then managed to let go of the thought that I should call you.

God, I hate being a pessimist. I always tend to picture you in danger. Argh. I can't blame myself though. How I wish.. nevermind.

this is my first attempt to write a blog entry. leave comments or tips on how i can improve on my writing. O_O